But I had a realization a while ago that changed when and how I express it.
See, after hours of researching apologetics, other religions, scientific theories and other things that I’m sure I left out….and after hours of debating I concluded 2 things:
1. I can eloquently explain why I have arrived at my conclusion,
2. No matter how well I debunk every single counter point, no matter how many rebuttals I smash, no matter how foolish I make other views appear, I can’t convince a person to believe on the Messiah for salvation. That’s an experience they have to have for themselves.
I can make a person respect that I have a well formed opinion. I can’t make a person embrace it for themselves. And I can’t change that they still find Christianity foolish (1 Corinth 1:18).
So my approach has changed in that I preach a little less, pray a little more, and love a lot more. I’m sure some of my fans from my old Christian rap days come to my blog expecting heaps of doctrine and videos of sermons. Sorry to disappoint. I’m sure there are plenty of others out there that will scratch that itch for you. That’s just not me.
“But brother David” you say, “how will they know the gospel unless someone preach? (Romans 10:14).” To that I respond, how will they be willing to listen to someone that’s berating them? How will they listen if their guard is up? I respect open air preachers. But not everyone is called to be that. I’m not that. I’m more like the early Christians who invited people over for dinner and showed love. I mean, we can’t forget, without love, we just sound like clanging cymbals. That’s not a good look. Love is the key to open that door.
I’m not a moral example of Christianity. You won’t find a monk in constant meditation and study in me. You’ll find the same messed up lump of decaying flesh that you are. You’ll just find a few key traits that have made me better than I once was. And if you stick around long enough, you’ll get to see my blemishes gradually wash away. That’s the idea. And hopefully one day, you’ll open your door and let me share my faith with you. And hopefully you can experience what I experienced.